I like to think that I’m a generally happy person. But sometimes, I just- am not. Sometimes, I’m anything but.
Sometimes, it only takes a photo, a sentence, a word to break me into pieces. Sometimes, negative thoughts come out of the blue to eat away all other thoughts in my head and it’s like there’s nothing good left. Sometimes, my chest feels tight, my heart starts beating wildly and tears start falling no matter how much I try to blink them away and I suffocate.
Sometimes, it’s none of these things at all but sometimes it’s all these things and more.
I was feeling down a couple of days ago and thought that it might be a good idea to share a little note or two, that came out of it.
One. These days will come. And when they do, a mini crying session never hurts. In fact, forget ‘mini’ – cry your eyes out if you have to. Go all out.
Two. But once your done (minutes later, hours after, days weeks months if you will!), never stop trying to find ways to be happy again.
Whether that means watching your favourite movies (HSM and Love, Rosie for me), sending voice notes back and forth between your friends (I sang on the voice notes I sent to my friends), singing at the top of your lungs (maybe Rihanna’s Take A Bow? at least that’s what I sang) or talking to a camera (or on snapchat, if that makes any difference because funnily, that’s what worked for me) – whatever makes you happy once more, just do it (right, Nike?).
Feel free to feel but promise that you won’t just leave it there. Because always (nope, not sometimes), I think happiness is worth it.
With love, Iween.