Dear 2016, Here’s to Us

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Of eye-opening firsts and heart-wrenching lasts, overflowing happiness and overwhelming pain – to say that 2016 was bittersweet is to play it so completely and utterly safe.

So forget it. Just forget it all. I refuse, absolutely refuse, to look back and recount what a year 2016 has been. I’d rather turn back, take a different road altogether, and just look at myself and what a person I’ve been in the last 365 days.

Because the memories don’t make us who we are. We make the memories who we are. We make the memories what we want them to be. And make of the memories what we choose. They matter, they do. But they’re just a small part of what matters the most – us.

So, 2016.

Here’s to Us.

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I’ve Been Bookstrucked

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BOOKSTRUCKED

(BOOK•STRUCKED), NOUN
finding yourself in a bookstore carrying five books in one hand and reading the summary of another book with the other – all the while not being able to take your eyes off of the bookshelves towering before you; browsing online for (more) books when an order of books you made a while ago are on the way and there are still books waiting to be read on your shelves; having an unhealthy obsession for books.

And when August swooped in, the solace I found in reading a book and the love for books that had been buried and stowed away for a while was rekindled. Soon enough, I found myself to be completely, hopelessly and utterly bookstrucked.

As for what got me here? A few culprits, to mention.

THRONE OF GLASS SERIES by SARAH J MAAS

The Assassin’s Blade, Throne of Glass, Crown of Midnight, Heir of Fire, Queen of Shadows, Empire of Storms

Throne of Glass series, YA High Fantasy Action | Meet Celaena Sardothien, also known as Adarlan’s Assassin, who is called to the Palace to represent the Crown Prince in a battle to become the King’s Champion. Or at least, that’s how it begins. What starts as a story of a deadly, arrogant assassin fighting for her freedom expands into a world that is so much more. A world where evil and nightmares are made flesh, where faeries and warriors come together, where wars and battles span through countries and across continents, where characters take you on journeys – journeys through the world’s borders, as well as journeys within themselves.| The Throne of Glass series is one with an amazing world-building, a set of unforgettable characters, meaningful character development, a storyline full of political intrigue and thrilling scenes, and a beautiful writing to top it all off. By the second book, I was hooked and I fell in love. It’s one of my favourite series now and I can’t wait for the last book to come out (while simultaneously dreading that day to come because I don’t want it to end just yet).Read More »

Five Senses

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Disclaimer: this post is inspired by one of the chapters of Nicola Yoon’s masterpiece, Everything Everything. I loved that chapter (it might be my favourite but I can’t say so exactly because there were so many chapters that I fell in love with for the beautiful writing style). And because of that love, I wanted to give something like it a try. So here goes.


Hearing

Like many other nights that came before, tonight is spent on cooking dinner for one.

Butter sizzles on the pan and I rush over to pick the garlic cloves I’ve sliced; shove them all in. The sweet scent wafts up. My stomach grumbles; it’s been a while since I’ve eaten – I’ve specially saved my appetite for this. Chili, shreds of lettuce, a bowl of washed and drained spaghetti – all of them go in the pan. A sprinkle of salt and a bit of cheese could do, too.

While everything is cooking, I find that my attention is divided. One eye on the pan and the food; the other on my phone that is leaning on the kitchen utensils holder. It was playing another vlog of Zoe’s. Another vlog, I say, because nights spent cooking dinner for one, are nights spent listening to her videos at the very same time.

Zoe’s voice booms out of my phone’s speaker, occasionally drowned out by the sounds of cooking – but that doesn’t bother me. These nights come by so often, that I’m more than happy to watch – I mean, listen! – to her vlogs over and over again. They give me company. A background noise that keeps the loneliness at bay.

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Wonderland in Owlcrate

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We found Wonderland. You and I got lost in it. 

Come and join me on a trip down the rabbit hole with Owlcrate‘s Wonderland-themed November box – to a world full of lively characters, of a scenery bursting with colour, of riddles and mazes, and a hint of darkness hanging in the air. A lyrical world where sense doesn’t make sense and unbirthdays are just as worthy to celebrate as birthdays are. Getting curiouser and curiouserRead More »

Getaway Part Two: A Verse

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Alone with your thoughts can be a scary place to find yourself in. Scary, lonely, a maze to get lost in, an adventure to seek,  a vocal silence, or a much needed sense of peace – easy to get into but to crawl back out will take a feat.

It’s where I found myself in the short getaway that I went to. And in it, I found solace. In it, I found that it was where I needed to be, if only for a while.

In that place, you’re allowed to breathe. Nothing pushing to get in to your thoughts, nothing clogging in your mind; heart left untouched – at least from the outside. But inside – oh, inside, where emotions are set to motion, and feelings take charge, to breathe can also mean to suffocate.Read More »

Getaway to KL: A Diary

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Five days away – but not away from home. Away from Brunei for a while, yes; staying in a different place for a while, yes – but not away from home. Because this time, home came with me. My mom, my dad, my sister and me altogether – home in the flesh, home in two pieces of luggage and home under my skin where in the place of my heart, there was, for once in quite a while now, ease and comfort and peace.

I brought home with me for a five-days getaway to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

We came for a relative’s wedding – which was a beautiful event for a perfectly matched couple and I was swooning over the happy smiles seen on the day. The trip was expanded to four more days where we got to spend time together. A little getaway.Read More »